Life is a strange thing. A very strange thing. I realize that now after being caged in my home for three weeks, no details will be given on that subject.

Here is what I've come to realize in my mental prison. I have lost the love of my life, and I need to get the hell over it. So I did. I am willing to be her friend/"big brother" as long as it takes to get her back. BUT, that does not mean I must think on the mindset that we will get back together. Unlike the past, the future is not set in stone. The next note, is that I worry for this girl, I worry every second of my life. There are multiple reasons for this. One day, I will not be around to look out for her, and I'm scared of her getting raped, driving drunk, and gettting into many other unpleasent situations. One of these situations she is already in, and she will not let me help her, because she does not want help. I don't want her to stop for my sake (to date me again) I want her to stop for her own safety. I love her, I can not control her/give her a strong influencing opinion (especially now), I want her to be happy (but not if her safety is at risk, which it is), and (while very selfish of me) I will do ANYTHING to get her back (even fight my way through a warzone).

I also realized that my depression was quite real. To the point of almost jumping off my house the first week. And the day my second week started, I quit. I'm done being depressed. It's how I lost my girlfriend, how I lost my grades, and how I almost considered ending my life.

I have so much to live for. My education, entertaining people, my friends...and hell, maybe I will get my girlfriend back. I'm determined to get her back now that I've decided to live my life instead of moping on the sidelines.

I hope in the future she'll give me another chance.

Anyway, that's about it.
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List of RIFT characters:

R.I.F.T. Team (w/ numbers & weapons):
#10 Edward Yoshida, uses special magnum w/curved bayonet
#6 Chi Kimura, spear w/runic power
#1 Dejeri (no last name, explained in story), scythe w/dark magic
#2 Baine Yamamoto, kanabō w/dark magic
#3 Jasper Yamamoto, short sword & dagger w/runic power
#5 Cadence Abe, chainsaw staff thing (staff with chainsaw for a blade on one end)
#7 Creed Shimizu, lazer cutlass

Essence of Darkness (w/powers):
Deyashy Yamada, wristband that creates shockwaves (and something else I'll let out later)

R.I.F.T. Masks (w/numbers of users):
#10 Akuma (Demon)
#6 Megami (Goddess)
#1 Tsuki no jotei (Moon Empress)
#2 Donyoku (Greed)
#3 Shouyoku (Lust)
#4 Hokori (Pride)
#5 Doki (Wrath)
#7 Senbou (Envy)
#8 Taida (Sloth)
#9 Taishoku (Gluttony)

Hopefully I can get this animated roughly, got people I want to voice act characters.